[ it's not like he'd been intending to hide it from kondou-san forever, but he never quite caught up to them after it happened, and when he finally did... until the very end, souji had played the part well, didn't he? kondou-san was none the wiser, but that's what made losing him all the more worse, made it hurt more than anything else.

it's probably why he doesn't go to such lengths in denying this. ]

If Kondou-san is worried, I don't regret making that decision. In fact, if given another chance...

[ he didn't have much of a choice the first time around. his illness had rendered him useless, and though it was clear kaoru baited him into taking it, if he wound up in the same situation again, then—

there's no mistaking what he would do. ]

Are you disappointed?

[ kondou-san may have said he's not upset, but, well, even souji see there's much more to it than that. ]